30 Before 30: Go Kayaking

I have been wanting to kayak for several years. The closest I got was testing the weight capacity of a friend's 'kiddie' kayak using my mom's pool. Needless to say, after not flipping and only paddling a few feet I really, really wanted to kayak. Anywhere. 

 Finally, in July 2014 I had my chance! Our staff retreat was kayaking in the Elk River. And I had a blast!

 Here are some photos we took with my waterproof camera:





I would really love to own a kayak or a canoe some day. I also enjoy canoeing and I definitely think Steven and I would enjoy doing that together, too. But for now, simply renting a kayak would be fun!

 See what I have left of my 30 Before 30 list. 

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